I have always struggled with lack of self worth, self belief and the feeling of never being good enough was something I deeply wrestled with for as long as I can remember.
From the ages of 19 – 22 I had 3 attempts to take my own life, battling with so much negative inner self talk was always a struggle.
I was 22 when I realised that I had two choices : I could either keep going along the same path that I was on and continue to not talk about my mental health or I could choose a different direction.
I knew by choosing the different direction , it meant that I had to open up , to talk and most importantly to be vulnerable.
Choosing to be vulnerable saved my life.
The power of vulnerability and opening up about things was the saving factor in obtaining a new perspective in life. Loosing my Dad at a very young age to suicide, I cannot help but think how different my life would have been if there was somewhere like Children’s Grief Centre , a place that allows you to speak about grief.
From my journey in grief with loosing my Dad and opening up about my own mental health it has made me realise the importance of TALKING.
We need to talk about our feelings. We need to talk about our mental health. We need to talk about Grief.
In October 2018, I was stuck in a rut as I had fallen into a negative mindset and my inner chatter overpowered me again. I was so overwhelmed with all my emotions that I was so stuck in a rut that I became paralysed on doing anything that would make the situation better.
One of the most amazing pieces of information that I learnt is that, even though I think I am worthless or feel not good enough , I still have the choice to ACT. So , I decided to run. I ran everyday, even though I felt like crap. I ran to escape my mind. Everyday I felt a little more at ease and with every step , I gained a little more clarity.
Fast track to May 2019, I decided it was time to defy all the odds, push all my limits and challenge myself to something I had never done before. In the past 6 months I have changed my whole mindset, gained a new lifestyle and have gained an utterly new perspective on the power of my mind and how I can use it to create a life that I love more and more everyday.
I want to inspire people to help them realise that they can achieve their dreams. The limits of our capabilities are only the ones we place on ourselves.